No. It isn’t because it can’t be. You can’t be gone; I can’t be alone. Not here, not now. Not in front of all my friends. Not in my own goddamn bedroom. And it can’t be because it isn’t. How are you still alive? I’ve prayed so hard. I don’t deserve this; you do.
You left me at my lowest. If I see your face again, I’ll be destroying it with whatever tools I’m granted. I’ll take a small child and beat you across the head with it until you resemble a Christian Rex van Minnen portrait. The ideas you so desperately attempt to convey to the world could be compared to a baby playing a 3-key piano due to the fact that you don’t have a heart.
P.S. I love you.
God, give me back my sanity, and please give my life back to me in a basket with a bow or the barrel of a gun, whichever is less painful.
Somehow I always knew it would end this way, but the cancer in my brain can’t determine if I’m too good for this world or if it’s too good for me. Somehow in all my fantasies I always die smiling. I always have the last laugh; always gone a hero, as I let the blood out of my veins.
But I won’t let you destroy me. I’ll keep on going and you will no longer inhabit my body. I’ve figured it out: you’re not evil, you’re not dead. You’ve just moved on, and now it’s my turn.
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