your carcinogenic kiss
a soul a spliff a lifted bliss
to hold your hands and smoke a gram and share it in between our lips
ive been needing this
ive been needing this
i need this cause i need reason i should breathe and live
i should give it to me
i could give my self illusions and pretend
a means to and end
all my grievances
set aside
embellishing lies
silent comprimise
first prize
blue ribbon
pbr that's my right hand man thats a given

"all i needs is me and my peebs"

ive intended to be better than what ive become
learn from all the shit ive done
learned that standard is forever endlessly expanded
relative to circumstances
i dont get no second chances
only second guesses to what i decide success is
how objectively i try define all my blessings
besting all my advisories
like im actually competive and necessary
umm not necessarily im my advisory
askin me to one v one me with the odds against me
feel like kratos got the gods against me
feel like ive got plenty but im obviously empty
fill me up
fill me up
fill me up
make me think I can be good enough
good enough for who or what im not sure i can even give a fuck
if its all for me then im not really doing anything
you said
we all need a reason
but death is all i believe in
and my mood changin like seasons
call me yung vivaldi
no one should fuckin want me
all i wants to find some cyanide inside my coffee
please dont cut me off unless youre tryin not to talk to me
ive been walkin down the greenway contemplating things i need to say
to people in my life i havent seen in
days
weeks
months
years
overwhelming fear
of what ive become id rather be remembered for the person that i was
not this ugly twisted fuck
that is all i see these days
hazardous i recommend you stay away
promise ive got nothin good to say to you
guilted by the tiiime that i take from you
so i will seclude me
solitudes the new-me
but ill still acknowledge you im just a frigid father dude
im doin what i gotta do im just a frigid father dude
a frigid father cool dad dont bother
frigid father cool dad

dont bother me